My plan is to use this blog to talk about weight loss. To keep a record of things I’m trying and to rant about the difficulties of the process.
Sticking to a strict regimen of protein bars and shakes does not work for me. It makes me feel deprived leaving much room for raiding the fridge after work. Meal prepping is something I enjoy doing. I love planning out a menu. I love cooking!
Things I want to focus on
- clean eating. no protein bars or shakes
- simple homemade meals to freeze
I’m starting this week a little late. It’s Monday and I’m going grocery shopping after work
I went to the gym last night. I hated it. It sucked. When I was done, walking to my car was an utter chore. Rest. Moan. Rest. Moan. Once home, I heated up some frozen chicken and threw that on a low-carb tortilla. An hour later, hungry struck so I had a slice of bread with some peanut butter on it. Okay, I added some raisins too. I have no idea why. A couple hours later I was hungry and had some edamame. I really hate the gym.
I feel like I’m already trying to justify my sadness so I don’t have to go back. I have my boys this weekend so I can’t even get back until Monday. I just need to keep telling myself that this is my MEDICATION.
I should have reached my weight loss goal by now. I am just a tad over 4 years post-op from my Vertical Gastric Sleeve. I have to admit that once it stopped being easy, I just started hanging on with finger tips. I never really owned this weight loss tool I was given. I wasn’t the person who started doing marathons. I wasn’t watching my carbs. I wasn’t even saying no to the pastries my boss would bring in. Suddenly I realized that I was living my life as if I was never morbidly obese at 309lbs. To this day, I am still coasting by, ignoring the gym and saying yes to all the deserts.
I have good intentions, I swear. I don’t know how many times I have gone grocery shopping with a new pumped up excitement after meticulously planning and researching a healthy eating plan. Two weeks later, I’m sick of chicken and fish and throwing out wilted expired vegetables.